New Life????

So it has basically been a year since I have written on this bloggy thing, but really nothing has happened until now. It is so crazy! So let me take you back, back to when this craziness all started. I decided a while ago that I was going to follow my dream of training birds and go into Zoology. Well the only place in the whole freakin' state to have that degree was Weber State. So I signed up for classes thinking that I would drive there every other day for my one class and take the others online. well I have never paid attention to how long it takes to get to Ogden because I was never driving. Last time I was preoccupied with a bird! I don't have time to look at clocks! Anyway I drove there to see an adviser and it freakin' took fffooorrreeeevvver! Plus the campus was twice as big as SLCC's and my classes where in the farthest building away on campus. I was thinking "what the crap is wrong with me?!!? I can't do this! I am only 24 years old, I am still just a baby! (according to my mom and dad in the real world 24 is old, but they know nothing) anyway for months I was concerned about what to do. It basically haunted my every action! I was never not able to think about it. People kept asking me " are you going to move there?" and I was like No way man I am staying right here! but the thought of moving kept nagging at me. What? Move? am I going crazy? what is wrong with me? I don't want to move! I told my parents I would live with them till I was 50! I can' t break their hearts like that. I can't let them down now. but I the thought wouldn't leave me. so every day, seriously, every day I looked for an apartment to rent or roommates but everything was so expensive or the people sounded crazy or lived with cats which I am allergic too. So my friend Megan, just got off her mission a few months ago, kept telling me that Ogden was the bomb and she had so much fun there. So I thought why can't see live with me! Genius! but of course that would have been easy and fun so no. that wouldn't be allowed. She found a job in Salt Lake. Crap! Everyone of my friends is either married or graduated. why do my friends have to be so awesome. why couldn't they be socially stunted like me? ugh! Dang friends. Well it was two weeks before August and I knew time was running out, school was starting soon. So then I had a visit from my visiting teachers and I told them I didn't know what to do. I was scared with either choice I made and I felt like I was suppose to have answer but I wasn't getting one. They told me that sometimes you have to make a decision and move forward with it and then the Lord would tell you if its right or not. so I thought long and hard about it and decided to take the plunge and move. I think I was kind of hoping the Lord would intervene and tell me I was wrong and to stop and stay home. But No, that's not how my life works, pretty much everything fell into place. The next Sunday Megan said that she knew a girl looking for a roommate and she gave her my number and by Thursday we had seen the place and I was saying yes to moving in with her. Again when I said yes I was waiting for that sinking feeling to come into my heart but it never came. then I tried to make it come and still nothing! Dang it! I was really doing this. So I quit my job at the college and two weeks later I moved to Ogden. That day was the hardest of my life. My mom and brother and sister helped me move everything in. Then they were gone. I was alone. with a girl I didn't know. SIDE NOTE: okay so I am not a normal person, I don't like meeting people, and the only ones that really really know me are my family. not even my closest friends know everything about me. and I get embarrassed about the stupidest things.
Well here I am all alone, I am crying while I unpack everything but trying not to let my roommate, Jamie is her name, know. but it is harder then you think because there is a freakin' Hole in the wall that goes into her bed room! what the crap! you have got to be kidding me. so I go to bed I just wanted this to be a dream and be over with but I couldn't go to bed because of the special Hole in the Wall! her light was shining through this giant hole. and then I couldn't get the door to close because the door knobs are so old I think the pioneers brought them across the plains with them. So the first night was a memorable one!
Well so far its week 3 of school and the classes get harder every week but I am trying to stay on top of it. I still don't have a job even though I have applied to every where within a 15 mile radius of my apartment. and I have come to learn that my roommate is the most perfect girl ever. you know that girl that you love to hate because she is so awesome? yep that's her. she is so sweet and nice and loves everything and is a health nut and everyone wants to be her friend and date her. Basically the exact opposite of me! its not her fault, but man it can be annoying some days. I come home so much that my dad is wondering why I moved out. I always tell him "I think aliens took over my body" its the only explanation that makes sense. so far I haven't made any friends and I just found out that there is not Target in Ogden. nNNNNOOOOO! so I will try to keep you five people posted of what is going on.

oh and here are some pictures of my place.This is the lovely corner I spend most of my time in, when I am not at school.

This living room is smaller then it appears!

small kitchen but nice!



the small shared bathroom. did I mention I hate being open to people I don't know!

NEW BIRD!!!!!

So on Saturday I went to Ogden to go pick up my new bird. I found her on KSL.com. The owner was giving her away because she didn't have time to spend with her since she hurt her leg and the bird was named Sunny and was 6 years old. Well I have been looking for a baby sun conure for months and no one had any yet. when I saw this bird I thought that why should I get a baby when this poor bird needs love too. So I sent out an email to the owner not thinking I would get a reply. but sure enough that same day she emailed me and asked me if I wanted her. I was over freaking joyed plus she was only $175 were a baby Sun Conure would have cost me around $400.

When we got her home she was really upset and we weren't sure if she really was a biter or not, the lady had said that she hadn't ever bitten anyone but I seem to be the person who has the first time with things like this, so finally I got her to sit on my shoulder and she would play with my hair and play with my eyelashes, which means she was preening me and was a good sign. Plus I was in need of a good preening!

so it was nice and she was getting kind of use to us. plus she lets you pet her and she won't bite at you for it! it was really weird. I am use to having a bird that would chew my hand off if it got to close so I was really nervous that she would turn around and attack, but she never did.

I asked my mom how my dad felt about me getting the new bird but she was like "I didn't tell him about it did you?" I was shocked she tells him everything even when I tell her not to tell dad she still does. so we wanted to see what would happen when he got home but this bird is really quite and he didn't even notice! it was so fun he came out and didn't even see the cage in the family room. but then we went to say family prayers and Sunny started screaming cause we left her alone. My dad had this look of shock on his face and looked at me. He asked " What the heck was that?" I just smiled and said " My new bird!" hahahaha it was funny. He acted all mad but he thought she was pretty and when she screamed again he said "Man it sounds like we are in a Jungle!" I listen to her squawk again and it does! its like being in Indiana Jones when he is in the jungle. its so cool! but I found out its not so cool when she screams and is on your shoulder.

So so far she is doing good and she loves people to pet her but she hates being picked up, and she never goes in the bottom of her cage but hopefully she will get use to us.

Bad week

So this week was really awful. Everything seems to happen at the same time all the time. Monday I had a day off from work which was awesome for the most part and I went to see the movie Coraline. Which is less creepy then the book but still really creepy I wouldn't recommend this movie for children. It scared me and there was a scene that I thought was a little to risky for a "children's" movie. We saw it in 3D which was cool but man where my eyes tired! I had to close them for a minute or two after the first hour and then I needed a nap. another reason why you shouldn't take your kids to this movie! Then I went to my sister house to play rock band. it was really cool but my gosh I can't play the drums. my left had can't keep a beat for anything. the guitar was a little easier but still really hard. but it was fun and some of the songs are insane so its fun to sing to sometimes.
But Tuesday at like three in the morning I wake up and have to throw up. it was awful so I stayed home from work and was sick to my stomach all day. I just sat around which since being on this diet I don't really like anymore. but my muscles hurt enough that I didn't want to move. lucky for me, my mom was off that day. I think it was unlucky for my mom because I found out later she was annoyed with me! I can't help it if I am bored and she is the only one to talk too! But I am positive if I was in her shoes i would be annoyed with me too so I can't really be mad.

Then I have been thinking about getting a new bird and I really really want a conure but my DAD won't let me have two birds in the house. Sometimes that man is so unreasonable I can't stand it but this bird we had was noisy and would bite and was mean. so I put an ad on the Internet to see if anyone would buy her. I told the truth that she was a mean bird and people wanted her!!!!!! I found this really nice lady that had other birds and I knew my bird would be so much happier there. so I was going to give her up on Saturday, but the lady wanted to know more about the birds character. so while writing an email to her I realized I really did like this bird and started crying. I am such a bad person! what in the world was I doing. I was giving up a bird that I had had for ten years just because I wanted a newer model? oh for shame! but I had already told the lady I would do it so I had to go through with it. trust me my conscience didn't let me go that easy I cried and had nightmares all week about it. but Saturday came and I had to let my bird go. but she was really happy when I left she was playing with all the other birds. and didn't scream when I left. but the one ray of hope is that she will send me pictures and updates about my bird so I don't have to just forget her and hope she might be happy I get to know!
So all week I was stressed about my bird and then I had a doctors appointment and I had only lost three pounds when I got there which means I gained and I had to beg her to let me have soy because she doesn't want me to add food every two weeks like I thought cause the longer i am on this diet the more weight I will lose. but even the health foods have soy so she let me but I still can have wheat only 3 times a week but its better then nothing!
Anyway it doesn't sound like a lot but there are other things that are on my mind but this is far to long anyway. but trust me it was a lllloooooooooonnnnnnnggggggg week. (sign) and now here comes another one. don't worry thought I always come out alive somehow!

Wheat can be oh so Awesome!

so here is an update about the food thing I am doing. I went to the doctor and she said that I was doing good but she wanted me on the diet for two more weeks to really get the "toxins" out of me. I basically told her I would die if she didn't let me add something back into the diet. Now I had thought a lot about what I would add back in and I had it all picked out. Soy. I was going to add Soy back in, but has I am sure this happens to you. the doctors makes me very nervous. so when she asked me what I would like to add back in I blurted out "WHEAT"! what the? where did that come from? wheat? I think I was thinking of having a sandwich at the time but it is all very fuzzy. but I still can't have loads a week I can only have wheat three times a week. so when I was done the first thing I did was run to subway!!! My little sister is the manager and I had her load up a sandwich with Veggies even the ones I don't really like! it was awesome I was so happy. real food! Glorious Bread! Never leave me. Never!

When I told my mom I went to subway she seemed disappointed in me but I told her the bread was whole grain. but then harvest came home and bursted my bubble. She said she read the ingredients and it was made of Enriched Wheat flour. which means it was not whole grain. I was crushed, I wanted to cry no no more sandwiches from subway! wwwaaaaaaawwawawawwaw. but I got over it. life must go on. so we went out and bought whole wheat bread and some meat I could have and slap some mustard on there and you have an awesome sandwich for someone who is hungry.

the diet isn't all bad so far I have lost 13lbs! I still look huge but I am hoping that will go away soon. right now I still have a week and a half before I go back and am able to add more stuff in and this time I will stick to my guns and yell out SOY! hahaha

Eating is Everything!

So I finally have something to write about it my blog!!!!! Aren't you so happy! All two of you that read this. I have been to my share of doctors and I hate going because they never treat me like a person and just tell me I need to lose weight. Well my goodness I had no idea I needed to lose weight! I've only had 12 other people tell me that. I just think they are mean and so busy that they don't see the big picture. anyway so my mom found a Doctor that works in her building and she was impressed when she talked to her. She really seemed like someone who cares about her patients. So last week I went to her and she said that I am the kind of person that has a hard time losing weight and that for my stomach she wanted to put me on a special diet. one that detoxes the system. so I was like what is so special about it? Well I can't have Wheat, Dairy, Corn, Soy, or preservatives for two weeks.

WWWWWHHHHHATTTTT?????

That's like EVERYTHING!!! so she gives me a packet of what I can and can't eat and some recipes I should try to make during the two weeks.

Well its almost a been a week and let me tell you I want to die!!! its so hard when you can't eat anything so I have been eating fruit and veggies and weird crap called Moki and stevea. I have never head of any of this crap! Then going to the health food store was like entering another dimension where everything tasted bad and all the people looked mad and unhappy. or at least that's how I felt.
OK its been hard yes but I know its good for me but I can't watch TV commercials cause they all have food and I want to sneak out and go to the drive thorough. and my sister has to eat at a different time then me because she can eat anything and be skinny all the time. oh that really burns my cookies........ yummy cookies ..... no summer no!!!

OK where was I? oh yes the diet and let me tell you fiber doesn't fill you up. I can eat and eat but I am never full and I am always hungry my stomach hasn't stopped growling since Sunday. (At least fast Sunday won't be so hard this month.)

oh and let me tell you about the recipes she gave us. my mom made this special salad dressing I could have and it is so gross it always makes my stomach lurch but I am so hungry I eat it anyway. then she makes this Cinnamon bread. I usually hate Cinnamon bead but I was so hungry and wanted something soft to chew. it was actually really good! I was so happy! for the first time something tasted good! I also tried to make my own spaghetti sauce and it was OK but it had a weird after taste. I was never very good at cooking. and then I tried last night to make an Applesauce Bread. I was so excited to eat it. when it came out of the oven I cut a piece straight away and took a huge bite. oh my gosh it tastes like FEET!!!! yuck!! patooooy! oh yuck. It was so gross ! oh this whole pan was a waste cause there was no way I am eating that. when my mom came home I didn't tell her it was gross I wanted to see if she said it was good cause she likes to fake me out and tell me it taste good so I will some how change my mind if she likes it. the look on her face when she had a piece was priceless!!! she hated it too! and she threw the whole thing out.

so I have no idea how i am going to survive the rest of the week. just pray for me.

update!

Okay so I am trying to blog more but not a lot happens to me and I never have cute pictures of what has happened. but anyway, Thanks for voting everyone the Aviary got the money that it desperately needed! and so did the Zoo! I was so afriad that they wouldn't get it because they couldn't advertise like the zoo did. So hurray it gets to stay and improve the buildings and build a new area for the park!
Also I forgot to tell you who won on Project Runway! (I know you were all dying to know) well...... Leann won! yahooooo! I was so happy. Her collection was really the best. Koto's collection was really pretty but a little plain. and Leann was the only one that shorts, pants, skirts, dresses, and shirts. the others just had dresses and skirts.
Oh and another thing! Does anyone know how to get a life? Cause my mom says that if I don't get one soon she is going to kick me out of the house. I am pretty sure that she was joking and just trying to scare me but I better be safe then sorry. But I don't really know what getting a life entails? I have some friends and we go out and I go to school and I have a job. so what more am I to do? I guess she wants me to get married but ....... I don't know any guys. like I am not joking I don't know any guys that aren't married or engaged. I know I know go to the singles ward. but they really aren't so nice to people that are ugly you know? so that is out but if you have any ideas for unattractive people I would really love to hear them! but I don't think anyone reads this so I don't think there will be to many Ideas. but I had fun blogging!

Save Tracy Aviary

PLEASE HELP! For all that is good and holy you must help. On Election day You must vote for Proposition 1. Tracy Aviary is the largest and oldest Aviary in the nation and the only one west of the Mississippi! This place is one of my favorite places to go. I love birds! They are interesting and beautiful. Its a great place for kids to take field trips and you learn so much while you are there. Unfortunately, due to lack of funding buildings are falling apart and are short of staff. Please this place means so much to me and the history of Utah and to all the birds that call it home. If you vote yes they have all sorts of new exhibits they want to add. Now I know you are thinking well they have birds at the zoo. Well not like this. They have birds that are native to Utah and South America. This place is also a bird rescue, there is a bald eagle there that has had its wing shoot off by a hunter and can no longer fly. They saved him and brought him back to health. I have seen this bird and it is Hugh!!! One of the most beautiful birds you will ever see! Plus they have this cool thing, where you can go and feed the parrots and they all flock to you at once! It was the coolest thing ever, having those cute birds all over me and to see them up close, they were nice and didn't really bite(but I am used to bird bites from my cockatail). They also have bird shows that show the tricks they have learned and why birds do things the way they do. Its a great place for a family outing! Little kids will love it. Trust me, I know!
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