One year older and not so much wiser

Today I am 23. Yes I know I don't look it and some people close to me might say I don't act it, but there is no getting passed it. Nature makes me 23. And as a friend reminded me, on this day, five years ago I graduated from High School. I remember after graduation how I had felt like my life was over. I had no idea what to do next or where I should go. Five years later, I still don't have any freaken' idea what to do with myself!!!!!!! When I was little I never thought about what I would be when I grew up. I always just figured that High school was the end that I guess I would just died after that. or something cool would happen anyway. I guess I was a crazy little kid and was dropped on my head one to many times from climbing on crap all the time. cause I never thought of my future. now that its here, I want nothing to do with it. if you knew me you might understand a tiny bit what I am talking about.(then again maybe not). Its just nothing I have ever done turns out. I am so used to failure my mom has started calling me that by accident. and when something starts to work I give up because its to good to be true.
anyway five years later I just don't want to try. I feel like I am empty and lost and not sure how people can do this! how as a human race have we made it this far!!!! I just don't understand it!
anyway its my brithday and I still have no idea what to do with myself.
Happy Brithday to me.

Pictures gone wrong

So I tried to scan some picture on to the computer but for some reason the computer knew it was important to me and wouldn't work. but lucky for me my digital camera loves me and let me put on pictures anyway they maybe a few months old but I don't think anyone but me has seen them so here they are!

Hayley wearing Grandpa's glasses

Micah being awesome!

Macey being cozy and Happy

Caleb being the Charmer

Jewelia being sweet and shy.

and just a picture I liked of the two of them.

School's out for the Summer, school's out Forever!

I don't know about all of you guys but I am ready for school to be out and done with! I don't know how in high school we went all the way until June. I am just so burned out and We still have two weeks left! but by April 29th Finales will be over and I will be free!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I thought about taking classes in the summer but if my brain is this hard to control in the snowy spring, then summer is out of the question. but I have learned lot from my two classes. I have learned that math doesn't always have to be super hard if you just do the homework, and that I won't be majoring in photography like I thought I might. why you ask?because I stink at it! And my teacher keeps telling us that after this class someone will ask you to photograph their wedding and I'm thinking there is no way someone would let me do their wedding they would have to be blind. so I guess its back to the drawing board.
but on saturday I did have fun Photographing my Neices and Nephews. it was a bright sunny day and not a cloud to be found. Troys backyard is awesome cause they have this cool playground type thing and I had a blast playing on it with the kids. Caleb was way funny cause he could hold a pose and say cheese for the longest time! it was so funny and Jewelia loved getting her picture taken too. All Hayley wanted to do was buckle the swing buckle on the baby swing together. she could do that for hours. Micah was awesome keeping everyone together for me and doing what ever I asked of him. it was really fun! and I will post the pictures as soon as I can. hopefully they turned out better then my last project. I guess I can post those next time too.
Peace out!

March Madness

Sorry friends that my blog never has pictures and such but I am just not that cool I guess. Anyway it was spring break last week and it was awesome. I got to come into work late and leave early and watch movies all day. and I was wondering to my self how could I possibly not like this job? Well Monday morning rolls around and the students are back and now I remember why I hate it so much. Cause of them! They are stupid, mean, and cranky! and I just can't take it! but it pays for a car that my sister drives and pays for weightloss plans that don't work, so I guess I shouldn't complain but then I would have nothing to live for! So March has been pretty uneventful except I am trying to plan a trip to Disney world with three of my friends and nothing seems to go as planned and so far I am not sure if I am going or not and its in May! Believe me I want to go so badly but it seems (as usual) the universe is against me and doesn't want me to be happy. ever. so who knows if I will ever get to go. Probably not. so right now i am not really counting on it.

Dan In Real Life

so yesterday I went to my friend Megan's house to see a movie my friends have been talking about for month! They talked about it all the time and made me watch parts of it off of youtube. I really couldn't wait it watch it. so finally it came out on DVD yesterday and my friends said I had to come watch it with them cause my life would never be the same! ok I didn't really believe my life would change but it was nice to think about it. anyway so let me tell you a little about Dan In Real Life. the leading man Dan is played by my favorite guy Steve Correll, He is a widower with three daughters and he writes for the newpaper. and he goes to visit his family when he falls for his brothers girl friend.

Well to be honest (and sorry Minds) but it wasn't as funny as my friends had said it would be. oh there was funny stuff in it believe me there is a part where the brothers make but an awesome song about Dan's blind date. but you're not laughing the whole time. the story is really touching and for a guy who plays a goof in almost everything he does really can tug at the heart strings with his acting. I (althought I hate to admit it) was crying near the end. It really is a good wholesome movie that you could really have fun watching with the whole family there.

the one thing I did hate about the movie was his stupid daughters. the little girl lilly was cute but the teenage girls I thought were way to hard on their dad and need to be slapped around a bit. but thats just me.

so if you have an evening when there is nothing on the TV. you should watch this cute movie!
(sorry this is a post that for some reason never got posted)

Wanting to take a Trip

As the sun comes out and the snow is melting, everyone can feel that spring is just around the corner. and I am Dying! I hate that I have to sit in front of this computer and see that it is already starting to pass me by. I want to go outside and play some B-ball or play a game of softball. I want out! I want to go and be somewhere besides here at work doing crap. I really just want to go to Disneyland or Disney world! I love Disneyland but i have heard that Disney World is the bomb!!! so I was looking up pricing and all that and found some fair deals, but then I started to play around to see what other things I could do, and I found a Page of awesome deals for cruises. Man they were like for Mexico and the Bahamas and Europe! Oh I want to go so badly. but why oh why do trips have to be for the rich and the more rich its not fair!!. even the little guys need some down time once in a while. Oh to be on a trip!

President's Day

Oh President's Day how I love thee! Well not really, you don't get presents and special candy or get to put up cool decorations. So why do I love Presidents day? Is it because I have grown up in a land that has had Great Leaders lead our country to be one of the best Nations ever? NO! I got work off today. Sadly yes that is my motive for loving this holiday. Also sadly I have found out that my life is work. I didn't do anything productive today, sure I did a ton of dishes that my brothers and sisters left me with after my mom and my sister and I cooked dinner for them. But really I had nothing to do. Oh sure I had things for school that need to be done but who wants to do that on their day off? so as is my life, I sat home. I know right? so let me know is that what normal people do on their days off or am I extremely lazy?